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Wow! For the first time in almost two years, I actually feel like I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I honestly believe that my divorce is coming to an end. That will take away a lot of stress. At the same time, I have these horrible mixed feelings though. Just being separated is no better than being divorced really but that D word freaks me out a little. I hate the thought of having to say I ever was married and that I failed at making it work. Its almost that I am marked for life as a failure and that aspect of it really bothers me. Now, other than that, I can only see good coming from it. I know some things will be hard for Abi in the future with her dad and I not being together but there are other things that will be better since she will not be seeing the example we would be giving her of how a marriage is supposed to be. ...... falling asleep... will finish tomorrow!