Here lately I have turned in to quite the control freak. I hate it! I feel on edge every where I go and have gotten to be over protective of Abi. I can't let go of her arm in the grocery store.... I make her go in the bathroom with me... I keep my doors locked.... I always sleep with my door closed and I have been leaving it open, in fear that someone will break into my house and take her from me.... I want to spend every minute with her. I do not know if this is because of the whole custody issue or what. And it is not just with issue of Abi. I found myself feeling super uncomfortable with Shawn driving the car the other day. I felt like I had no control at all and that mine and my daughters life was completely in his hands. I trust him but it was just a weird feeling. When Abi comes to my work, I make her follow me around because I am afraid a customer will take her or something. I wonder if this is all normal. Will it end or do I need some serious help? I just pray that this all ends soon and good results come from it!
I love you Abi with all my heart!!!
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